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I feel like actual garbage rn. I'm currently going through an "I don't want to art" phase, and I know it's normal to feel that way sometimes, but this time I can't seem to get over it. And I am genuinely scared, because art has been a big part of my life, and I don't want to just lose it.
I've definitely been through these moments before, like art block and stuff, but they usually just last for 1-2 weeks, and this has been going on since August, making it around 4-5 months. And I don't want to keep on having to write "I'll promise to post more often after this" in every single post because I really don't know when this'll completely end.
Everytime I feel like "oh I haven't drawn in a while", I'd get everything ready, my sketchbook, pencil, eraser, or my tab if I felt like drawing digitally, but then I'd just end up spending 2 hours sitting down thinking "I don't want to do this", "I have no ideas", "I can't finish this hand", "I can't do this", "I just can't", and when I do finally end up finishing a piece, it just looks so ugly, that I just didn't want to post it, or worse, I would delete it or throw it away.
I don't know if all of this is happening because I've reached that age where I start to have doubts and realize that maybe my art isn't rly that good from the start, where I'm just starting to compare myself to other artists, and where I start to pressure myself to draw realistically, and while that is not wrong, trying new art styles is not wrong, but I believe that the way that I am pushing myself towards a more realistic approach to art, is really overwhelming and exhausting, resulting in me not wanting to draw at all, because I just don't want to look at my horrible drawings.
Back in 2016 and actually early 2017, I was quite active in deviantart, I would post like 5-10 time each month, and I was so proud of myself, I was improving, I was doing something I love [as a matter of fact, I drew 46 drawings (only posted like 19 tho) in December last year].
I haven't really parted from art completely. I mean I still doodle and sketch stuff sometimes, I still watch Drawing with Jazza and Baylee Jae and lots of other art youtube channels, and I do still have the strong desire to do art sometimes, but I do feel like now I spend way more time looking at studyblr and bullet journal videos than I do drawing.
Thankfully, recently I've seen myself kinda getting out of it, like this picture right here, I just drew it a couple of weeks ago, and I can actually see lots of improvements compared to stuff I drew at the start of 2017. I guess my style is looking kinda more realistic now, but I definitely still have lots to learn. Well hopefully I can sort all of this out, and I know I've said this a lot of times before, but I really really do hope that I can start drawing and posting again soon.
tl;dr I have lots of art problems that none of you probably care about, but I'm getting better now so yay
Also my tab is kinda broken rn, it's really laggy and unresponsive, so be expecting lots of traditional art
Pic: Princess Bubblegum from Adventure Time
ik i should've drawn her in pink, a missed opportunity right there -w-
and i take pictures near my window now, cuz it's the only place where I can take bright and clear photos. just hope my sketchbook won't fall down lol
I feel like actual garbage rn. I'm currently going through an "I don't want to art" phase, and I know it's normal to feel that way sometimes, but this time I can't seem to get over it. And I am genuinely scared, because art has been a big part of my life, and I don't want to just lose it.
I've definitely been through these moments before, like art block and stuff, but they usually just last for 1-2 weeks, and this has been going on since August, making it around 4-5 months. And I don't want to keep on having to write "I'll promise to post more often after this" in every single post because I really don't know when this'll completely end.
Everytime I feel like "oh I haven't drawn in a while", I'd get everything ready, my sketchbook, pencil, eraser, or my tab if I felt like drawing digitally, but then I'd just end up spending 2 hours sitting down thinking "I don't want to do this", "I have no ideas", "I can't finish this hand", "I can't do this", "I just can't", and when I do finally end up finishing a piece, it just looks so ugly, that I just didn't want to post it, or worse, I would delete it or throw it away.
I don't know if all of this is happening because I've reached that age where I start to have doubts and realize that maybe my art isn't rly that good from the start, where I'm just starting to compare myself to other artists, and where I start to pressure myself to draw realistically, and while that is not wrong, trying new art styles is not wrong, but I believe that the way that I am pushing myself towards a more realistic approach to art, is really overwhelming and exhausting, resulting in me not wanting to draw at all, because I just don't want to look at my horrible drawings.
Back in 2016 and actually early 2017, I was quite active in deviantart, I would post like 5-10 time each month, and I was so proud of myself, I was improving, I was doing something I love [as a matter of fact, I drew 46 drawings (only posted like 19 tho) in December last year].
I haven't really parted from art completely. I mean I still doodle and sketch stuff sometimes, I still watch Drawing with Jazza and Baylee Jae and lots of other art youtube channels, and I do still have the strong desire to do art sometimes, but I do feel like now I spend way more time looking at studyblr and bullet journal videos than I do drawing.
Thankfully, recently I've seen myself kinda getting out of it, like this picture right here, I just drew it a couple of weeks ago, and I can actually see lots of improvements compared to stuff I drew at the start of 2017. I guess my style is looking kinda more realistic now, but I definitely still have lots to learn. Well hopefully I can sort all of this out, and I know I've said this a lot of times before, but I really really do hope that I can start drawing and posting again soon.
tl;dr I have lots of art problems that none of you probably care about, but I'm getting better now so yay
Also my tab is kinda broken rn, it's really laggy and unresponsive, so be expecting lots of traditional art
Pic: Princess Bubblegum from Adventure Time
ik i should've drawn her in pink, a missed opportunity right there -w-
and i take pictures near my window now, cuz it's the only place where I can take bright and clear photos. just hope my sketchbook won't fall down lol
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Aw man, I'm sorry that you're stuck here. I know that this isn't very useful, but we all reach that limit at one point or another. I was — and still kinda am — stuck in that phase too. You might be doubting yourself, second guessing yourself, and being afraid of making mistakes in fear of disappointing yourself or others. You might be nit-picking at things, trying to perfect everything down to the perfect stroke, but then still fear that it wouldn't be good enough.
And you know what? It happens. It's kind of why I put writing and drawing comics on a hold. It was because I was afraid that it wouldn't come out how I wanted it and that it'll turn out crappy. But here's the thing. When you draw, you're bound to make mistakes. It will never be perfect, because you are always learning. So since there will always make mistakes, make the best out of them. Learn from them and improve. You can't walk if you sit down; you can't learn if you don't fail.
So just pick up a pencil and draw. Just draw anything, anything at all. Small scribbles, generic facial angles, failed dynamic poses (speaking from experience, lol). Don't expect anything perfect to come out of it. Just draw. Don't be afraid to make mistakes, because that's the only way you can learn. Nothing in your sketchbook has to be polished. After all, it's called a sketchbook. All you have to do is draw something.
Once you draw, you may think that it's crap. That's alright, it happens all the time. What matter is what you do afterwards: whether you keep focusing on the bad, or whether you push yourself to reflect on what went wrong and try again. I know that it may feel terrible, or that your self-esteem is under the carpet, or that you just can't bring yourself to draw despite wanting to so damn much...
But know that in long run, learning from your mistakes would make you a better artist — and a better person.
I wish you luck in your artistic journey.
And you know what? It happens. It's kind of why I put writing and drawing comics on a hold. It was because I was afraid that it wouldn't come out how I wanted it and that it'll turn out crappy. But here's the thing. When you draw, you're bound to make mistakes. It will never be perfect, because you are always learning. So since there will always make mistakes, make the best out of them. Learn from them and improve. You can't walk if you sit down; you can't learn if you don't fail.
So just pick up a pencil and draw. Just draw anything, anything at all. Small scribbles, generic facial angles, failed dynamic poses (speaking from experience, lol). Don't expect anything perfect to come out of it. Just draw. Don't be afraid to make mistakes, because that's the only way you can learn. Nothing in your sketchbook has to be polished. After all, it's called a sketchbook. All you have to do is draw something.
Once you draw, you may think that it's crap. That's alright, it happens all the time. What matter is what you do afterwards: whether you keep focusing on the bad, or whether you push yourself to reflect on what went wrong and try again. I know that it may feel terrible, or that your self-esteem is under the carpet, or that you just can't bring yourself to draw despite wanting to so damn much...
But know that in long run, learning from your mistakes would make you a better artist — and a better person.
I wish you luck in your artistic journey.